Here I am to worship

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness,
Open my eyes let me see.

Beauty that made this heart adore you,
Hope of a life spent with you.

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Her I am to say that you're my God,
You're altogether lovely, Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me.

King of all days
Oh, so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above.

Humbly You came
To the earth you created
All for love's sake became poor.

( chorus )

I'll never know how much it costs
To see my sins upon that cross.

25 December 2004, Christmas Day
I guess i have to spent this christmas alone. My parents' will be out attending a wedding dinner. My brother, i have no idea.. maybe he's going out with his friends. I dunt want to spent christmas alone. i want to go out.. i just want to spent my time outside, with anyone.. anyone will do.. I dunt want to feel so. alone.. why am I always the one.. Damnnnn

hahas. i'm beginning to write lesser on my blog these days.. i dunt know just feeling bored with it already.. ``I seriously dunt want to feel this way.. if you're not happii den just speak it out okaay it's so obvious.. fine.. whatevaa. I dunt think i wanne stay behind after church anymore.. sorrie. i'll just go home, lock myself in the room and blast my ears with jay's songs. I always feel the urge to cut myself when i'm really depressed, i seriously feel like cutting myself now.. anyway no one will ever care. no one gives a damn.

Ihatemylife.
Seriously.

i'm feeling so lost and troubled. I hate this feeling. I'm feeling so lost and troubled.. so lost and troubled.. so lost and troubled.. so lost and troubled.. I hate this.. I wanne cut myself.

yeahhh i bought board shorts and black long sleeve shirt today` wheezz. daa feeling of getting new things is so great. hahaas next week.. hiakhiakhiak.. i'm going to daa beach and far east.. i wanne tan myself! Thailand trip's so near.. must push myself liao worr~ arghh.. i forgot to go for my piano class today, next week must go for double.. Max is such a cutee doggie. it was really fun taking them out for ''kai kai'' hahaas.. den max and toby went to almost every tree to let excessive water out.. lolss i wanne digital cam, nike shoe and roxy bag.. where daa hell do i get that money i can't even find a job.. bleahhh gonna bring Max for grooming soon.. can learn how to groom dogs also sia.. hahaas

` lurvee euu

hahaas. Happii Birthdaee daddy! you're getting older` hehehs. I gave my daddy a wooden carving saying ''Dad, there's something special about our family...you...'' lols my mum gave him a shirt and my brother gave him a watch. the watch's really cool.. it goes transparent after ahwile and euu caan see the mechanism inside` what daa hell.. I cant find any part-time job arghhh.. I cant work in sueann's father's company b`cos i have band practice on tuedays and fridays. haizz.. yeahhh` i'm going shopping tmr.. gonna use up my money... i'm afraid not enuff... =( and worst stilll, if sis siew lan booked the tickets to the mamamia musical, i'm broke. each ticket costs 80 bucks! that's my savings for almost 1 month! hahaas.. but nvmm lahh.. diaao` -.-' family day is coming! and then 4 days after family day, it's the thailand trip, 5 days after thailand trip is church camp. ohh man.. i can`t wait!! A revival will take place soon.. I love euu Jesus, I love euu daddy! Happii Birthdaee, you're growing old. =P

` lurvee doesnt meann possession
` euu being happy is all that I ask for

darnn

Hahaas. rearranged my room today.. it waas really messy. lols and i spent 3 hours tidying everything upp. i feel soo satisfied now.. hahaas and that jr asked mii whether waan to go watch shark tale. bleahhh i`ll neva go watch movie with him, provided yiwei follows.. =) i'm so bored at home.. just idling my tym awayy... yeahhh` 17 more days to Thailand. i'm so excited for the competition.. hahahs waat da hell is wrong withh those group of guys and us.. we used to be so close... but whateva` so be it. whuu cares.. sometimes i just feel so darnn moody as to wanna slashh myself.. anywayy i'm sorrie to cut myself in da' past.. i can`t help it.. i'm darnnnn moody. argghhh.

ihatemylife.

` yeahh. just wish euu were here..

bleahhh

I`m feeling really sore. I hate this. Jeremy's such a hypocrite, come to think that I used to trust him so much in the past. well.. cunt say much though, I was blinded. Bleaah. and that jiarong, how long is he going to lie to alinia. we`ve seen thruu his real colours. damn. I've made it into the double sciences, but I think there`s a mistake. haiz.. I've not seen him for such a long tym.. he`s so different.. I dare not even look at him today, not even once. But I dunt wanne bother him, he's in a relationship.. bLahhh. It's so annoying. I have to eat tablets everyday, b`cos i dunt have enuff vitamins, and if i dunt eat i'll feel really full the whole day, even thoughh i din eat my meals.. sometimes i really hate my life, how I wish that i could just die. I hate him.

` Imissyou. and
` I'llnevaforgeteuu.