Je m'ennuie de vous

Here I am to worship

2004-11-15T13:50:00.000-08:00

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness,
Open my eyes let me see.

Beauty that made this heart adore you,
Hope of a life spent with you.

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Her I am to say that you're my God,
You're altogether lovely, Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me.

King of all days
Oh, so highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above.

Humbly You came
To the earth you created
All for love's sake became poor.

( chorus )

I'll never know how much it costs
To see my sins upon that cross.

2004-11-15T01:57:00.000-08:00

25 December 2004, Christmas Day
I guess i have to spent this christmas alone. My parents' will be out attending a wedding dinner. My brother, i have no idea.. maybe he's going out with his friends. I dunt want to spent christmas alone. i want to go out.. i just want to spent my time outside, with anyone.. anyone will do.. I dunt want to feel so. alone.. why am I always the one.. Damnnnn

2004-11-14T00:26:00.000-08:00

hahas. i'm beginning to write lesser on my blog these days.. i dunt know just feeling bored with it already.. ``I seriously dunt want to feel this way.. if you're not happii den just speak it out okaay it's so obvious.. fine.. whatevaa. I dunt think i wanne stay behind after church anymore.. sorrie. i'll just go home, lock myself in the room and blast my ears with jay's songs. I always feel the urge to cut myself when i'm really depressed, i seriously feel like cutting myself now.. anyway no one will ever care. no one gives a damn.

Ihatemylife.
Seriously.

2004-11-13T22:21:00.000-08:00

i'm feeling so lost and troubled. I hate this feeling. I'm feeling so lost and troubled.. so lost and troubled.. so lost and troubled.. so lost and troubled.. I hate this.. I wanne cut myself.

2004-11-11T20:32:00.000-08:00

yeahhh i bought board shorts and black long sleeve shirt today` wheezz. daa feeling of getting new things is so great. hahaas next week.. hiakhiakhiak.. i'm going to daa beach and far east.. i wanne tan myself! Thailand trip's so near.. must push myself liao worr~ arghh.. i forgot to go for my piano class today, next week must go for double.. Max is such a cutee doggie. it was really fun taking them out for ''kai kai'' hahaas.. den max and toby went to almost every tree to let excessive water out.. lolss i wanne digital cam, nike shoe and roxy bag.. where daa hell do i get that money i can't even find a job.. bleahhh gonna bring Max for grooming soon.. can learn how to groom dogs also sia.. hahaas

` lurvee euu

2004-11-10T23:52:00.000-08:00

hahaas. Happii Birthdaee daddy! you're getting older` hehehs. I gave my daddy a wooden carving saying ''Dad, there's something special about our family...you...'' lols my mum gave him a shirt and my brother gave him a watch. the watch's really cool.. it goes transparent after ahwile and euu caan see the mechanism inside` what daa hell.. I cant find any part-time job arghhh.. I cant work in sueann's father's company b`cos i have band practice on tuedays and fridays. haizz.. yeahhh` i'm going shopping tmr.. gonna use up my money... i'm afraid not enuff... =( and worst stilll, if sis siew lan booked the tickets to the mamamia musical, i'm broke. each ticket costs 80 bucks! that's my savings for almost 1 month! hahaas.. but nvmm lahh.. diaao` -.-' family day is coming! and then 4 days after family day, it's the thailand trip, 5 days after thailand trip is church camp. ohh man.. i can`t wait!! A revival will take place soon.. I love euu Jesus, I love euu daddy! Happii Birthdaee, you're growing old. =P

` lurvee doesnt meann possession
` euu being happy is all that I ask for

darnn

2004-11-08T18:42:00.000-08:00

Hahaas. rearranged my room today.. it waas really messy. lols and i spent 3 hours tidying everything upp. i feel soo satisfied now.. hahaas and that jr asked mii whether waan to go watch shark tale. bleahhh i`ll neva go watch movie with him, provided yiwei follows.. =) i'm so bored at home.. just idling my tym awayy... yeahhh` 17 more days to Thailand. i'm so excited for the competition.. hahahs waat da hell is wrong withh those group of guys and us.. we used to be so close... but whateva` so be it. whuu cares.. sometimes i just feel so darnn moody as to wanna slashh myself.. anywayy i'm sorrie to cut myself in da' past.. i can`t help it.. i'm darnnnn moody. argghhh.

ihatemylife.

` yeahh. just wish euu were here..

bleahhh

2004-11-06T22:50:00.000-08:00

I`m feeling really sore. I hate this. Jeremy's such a hypocrite, come to think that I used to trust him so much in the past. well.. cunt say much though, I was blinded. Bleaah. and that jiarong, how long is he going to lie to alinia. we`ve seen thruu his real colours. damn. I've made it into the double sciences, but I think there`s a mistake. haiz.. I've not seen him for such a long tym.. he`s so different.. I dare not even look at him today, not even once. But I dunt wanne bother him, he's in a relationship.. bLahhh. It's so annoying. I have to eat tablets everyday, b`cos i dunt have enuff vitamins, and if i dunt eat i'll feel really full the whole day, even thoughh i din eat my meals.. sometimes i really hate my life, how I wish that i could just die. I hate him.

` Imissyou. and
` I'llnevaforgeteuu.

I hate them.

2004-11-03T00:01:00.000-08:00

Band was so fun. esp when it's at night.. with the exception of getting bitten by mosquitoes. haha But i missed my fav show, everybody was like whining over it also.. jerry's so funnie. you get to quarrel and argue with him, and when he loses or has nothing to say, he just goes to you and steps on your feet. bleah (ball-less.haha) and oh yah. (sorry ferran) In the midst of jokes and crap, i accidently blurted out who he likes infront of the whole clarinet section. oPpx =X sorry pal.. I just hope alinia & hilary quickly dye their hair black again. i dun't want extra trouble to stir up again. Argh.. I seriously don't know what to do, yi wei's socks are too low, she'll pull it up but pull it down again after awhile. alinia's socks also too low, ask her to pull it up, she'll pull it down after awhile again.. haiz.. den that group of gurls will complain that i'm uh.. Bias? (look, if i go strict on them, they'll show me black faces. and if i'm linient towards them, they'll take me for granted. duh. how you expect me to deal with them. -.-") Mums' are the best. They'll be waiting for you until you get home, and when you get home, they'll warm up the food just for you. So nice. I know that at times i've upset her, talk back to her, show her face. I know how is she feeling but sometimes i choose to ignore it. haiz. (sorry mummy.) I hate that group of guys. I didn't expect jeremy to actually backstab me. i trusted him so much. (Thank God i haven't given him a bdae present yet. if not i'll only be wasting my money on p'ple like him who don't appresiate other p'ples goodwill. Bleah.) But for jr, i knew he will someday.. 'cos i've backstabbed too. And i've finally seen his true colours. Forget it.. I don't need fr'nds like them. Right now the only p'ple in that grp that i trust is Sd, Jon, Zy and Ferran.

- [Sometimes i really wish to know what you're thinking about. Do you care? Imissyou.] --

lalala.

2004-11-02T15:40:00.000-08:00

My room's finally tidied up. neat & tidy. feeling so fresh.. heez.. time for me to laze around. it's so nice to be lazy. haiz.. i promised jeremy a birthday gift but i haven't even bought a suitable one for him yet (i'm sorry buddy..). it's so hard to pick presents for guys.. they're hard to please.. haha. i'm so happy, DCD's coming.. but my parents' aren't going haiz.. I wanta buy nike shoe and it's like 80 bucks? how can i afford it. i'm still planning to buy other things. like duh. I feel so excited having band practice at night. whOoSe~ kewl huh. but i'll miss Ren wo hao you. Alamak.. have to get ready for band practice now.. chao`

- [Do you really care? Imissyou. We don't even talk.. sob.] --

I'm bored.. =X

2004-11-01T22:05:00.000-08:00

I'm bored. Seriously. My room is so messy. argh. I can't be bothered to pack it during the exam period. And my parents have been nagging and nagging at me to pack my room, esp my study table.. I wun't get pocket money if i didn't pack my room, and i'll die without money if i'm going out. pathetic =X. I didn't manage to finish macking my room though.. but i don't care. haha Ren wo hao you rawks* man. Fiona's so lucky. she got to hold Toro's hand! I'm so jealous! whEez.. =D

- [Imissyou. I wish you were here.. ] --

I dun't care.

2004-10-31T20:40:00.000-08:00

Chinese service. guess what. I caught brendon sleeping, and the way he dozes off and wakes up is funnie. haha. Combined service was great man. whOoSh~ yeay! i started on sec 3 maths today. Complex but. uh.. fun? =X Green Bean's so fun. esp Mr yap. he always buys sweet for us, buys drinks and even food. PIZZA! haha. It's true that some p'ple just poke their noses into someone else's business instead of minding their own. Who is he? must i tell him where i went, what time i went off and everything? he's not even say.. my beau, or even my BEST FR'ND. this is getting annoying. (Mind your own business.) Thank God i dun't hafta see him everyday. =X

- [Imissyou] --